I’ve Always Wanted To…

The prompt for today asks that I step away from rational thought.  I agree that I can talk my way out of doing something by rationalizing it to death.  One thing I’ve always wanted to do was write a book.  At first, I had dreams of being a best-selling author.  But now, I would settle for getting my ideas out of my head and on paper/into my laptop.  There are some obstacles that I have encountered.  I see some of them as excuses though.  Nonetheless, I am still hopeful that one day a book will come to fruition.

My obstacles come in the form of writer’s block, not being focused on writing, and simply being exhausted from my day job.  I am truly thankful for this opportunity to share some of my writing because the prompts seem to be helping me with the writer’s block.  I attempt to write something every day, but I have come up short lately.  However, with this #Trust30 challenge I find myself wanting to write 🙂

Over the past couple of years I have had a series of unfortunate situations in my life.  I had not been in the mood to write and felt like there was no point.  Then one day a friend said something that was very simple – write about the pain and the problems.  I started keeping a journal.  I would write in it from time to time.  I would write on especially difficult days because I wanted to make sure that I captured the raw emotions while they were fresh.  I have them and may use them in the near future to begin some type of writing project.

Exhaustion.  Just typing the word makes me tired.  It is more mental exhaustion than anything.  My day job is a thankless, but very necessary job.  I really enjoy it, but it has sucked the life out of me for the past 5 years.  Some would say that I should leave and get a new job.  I agree and I have looked to change where I am working and am even considering a new path of altogether.  I’m tired of being tired.

Again, I am faced with finding ways to overcome these obstacles.  This writing challenge seems to be helping with the writer’s block.  I have plans this summer to delve into the issues of the past that are hidden in those journals.  And I am definitely going to take more time to rest and find some balance.  I will start eating better and adding more exercise to my daily routine.  I will revisit this post in about 3 months and update how these changes have or have not made a difference in my quest to become an author.


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