Wholly Strange and New

Can you remember a moment in your life when you had life in yourself and it was wholly strange and new? Can you remember the moment when you stopped walking a path of someone else, and started cutting your own?

Write about that moment. And if you haven’t experienced it yet, let the miracle play out in your mind’s eye and write about that moment in your future (Author: Bridget Pilloud)

I remember when my parents dropped me off at college.  That was my first wholly strange and new experience.  My parents were very strict and I had to ask for permission to do most things.  I was allowed to make some decisions but I had to run things by them first.  I appreciate their guidance now, but then I couldn’t wait to get from under their grip.

I remember that the thought of going away to college was so thrilling.  Meeting new people, being in a new learning environment, and most of all being able to make my own decisions.  I could hardly wait.

Move-in day arrived and I remember my father acting very strange and my mother having to reassure him that I was going to be fine.  They moved me in and after getting over the initial shock of finding out that I would be living in a co-ed dorm, my dad was ready to head back home.

We said our goodbyes and I remember standing in the parking lot watching my family drive away.  I felt lost.  I didn’t know anyone at the school, didn’t know my way around the campus, and I had no idea what I was supposed to do next.  Those happy feelings of independence had fled my being and all I wanted was my family.  At that very moment I realized that I would be the one making very important decisions for myself.  No more sheltered life.  I was going to have to make it on my own whether I wanted to or not.

This was wholly strange and new for me.  I had imagined what it would feel like to be on my own but I didn’t know if I was ready to handle it.  It took me a while to trust that I could make decisions on my own and that they could be good ones.  However, I also learned very quickly that some of my decisions were not so wise (8 am classes, staying up until sunrise, eating and drinking whatever and whenever I wanted, etc.)  Eventually, I got better at trusting myself , found balance, and found my college experience to be excellent.




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